Its been over a year since my last post. Last year was such a very sad year for me. On September 24, 2010 I lost my mom, my dearest friend and confidante, my mom who gave me confidence to be strong no matter what, who never judged me and unconditionally loved and supported the person I am. I used to call her and ask her about things I wondered about--we talked a lot about life in Hawaii after the bombing of Pearl Harbor, about her life as a teacher's aide, about her life with dad. She would give me tips on cooking good food and share news of family and friends with me. We would roar with laughter at the silliest little things. I could talk to her about anything and everything, and she listened. Loosing mom has left a large void in my life, I miss her so very much. I didn't want to live after Mom died, I cared about nothing. There are days more often than not that I feel like I'm moving in a dream I can't shake myself awake and life moves by in a blur. Its hard to believe its been a year since I've written here.
In March this year I started painting again--I was inspired by a joyful poem by e.e.cummings and painted an abstract painting. The painting is named "lifted from the no of all nothing" from a line in the poem. I am getting back to normal, coming out of the no of all nothing into the infinite, which is yes.
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